Hello out there! Where to start… at the beginning I guess.
A little about me… I have been strong and independent my whole life. I emancipated young from a not so great home life that left lots of internal scars and trauma and then add in an adult life that wasn’t smooth and left more traumas. I have C-PTSD, ADHD with RSD (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria), Generalized Anxiety Disorder with debilitating panic attacks and depression. In other words I am a mental health hot mess or I should say I was.
Due to an extremely emotional event I was forced to do a deep dive into myself and lots of therapy with EDMR (Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing… a type of trauma therapy tool), journaling, reading, soul searching and so much more. But, as I rise from the ash on the other side I understand myself on a level I NEVER EVER have. I have an internal peace and clarity I didn’t think was possible and finding those things have been amazing for myself but also my marriage and the Life Style Dynamic we have. When you are truly happy and at peace everything else falls into place much easier.
Understanding how c-ptsd has changed my brain LITERALLY and how to navigate my new thought processes, feelings, wants, needs and etc has really helped me on the path I have chosen. Understanding ADHD with RSD affects how I see and hear things and helps me keep my overthinking in check. Doing the blood work to find out what meds will and won’t work with my body chemistry and getting off big pharma Anxiety meds and using edibles for anxiety as needed has helped balance me. I have never been this balanced in my whole life! ***PSA… I am not telling you to use edibles or telling you to go off meds. I have discussed this at length with all my providers and been open and honest with them. I have done a ton of research for myself and made decisions from there.***
I will dive deeper into all this in future entries but in conclusion what I have to say to you is this… Know yourself first! Know what you do and don’t like (even if those things are basic because we all start somewhere). Never stop learning. I personally read things that aren’t even in my wheelhouse because a different perspective might be all the spark I need. Read! Read books, articles, websites… Find a mentor or a person with common interests and goals that you can talk to. Don’t be afraid to speak up!
Until next time,
Pretty in Pink 🩷
Pretty in Pink 