When I started my journey into Lifestyle stuff I had no idea who I was or what my limits were. I dove in head first and in the initial “Frenzy” I got lost. There was so much out there and my ADHD brain said we had to try it all but my inner conditioning had no idea how to ask for anything or bring anything up. The conflict was mentally and emotionally draining!
I kept trying new things and I feel like I cycled through so many things that it’s all now just a blur! The things I did like left me at odds with the way I was brought up and then ate away at me but I hid it all because I didn’t want to disappoint my husband and I figured someday I would be fine.
After I had the the time to figure myself out; I then understood and accepted why I liked things and what I got from them. So, without further ado… What submission means to me and details about my submission.
I am primarily a service submissive. I am happiest when I am In Service or Of Service to my Daddy. That can be anything from being whatever he wants/needs sexually, to taking care of the house on a daily basis (we are 24/7 and live traditional gender roles), taking care of the kids and dogs, all household bills, trimming his hair, showering him, taking off his boots after a long day at work, holding a screw in place while he assembles something and so on. I enjoy being of service to my Daddy. I like being able to take things off his shoulders and being the person that my Daddy can ask for absolutely anything no matter how large or small and with no judgement. I deeply enjoy being able to fulfill my Daddy sexually and that he can ask (we always talk about things first) for whatever he would like and know I will do it for him. Being able to be that peace of mind for my Daddy keeps me extremely satisfied in our dynamic.
I have middle and brat tendencies but being middle was another thing that I had a hard time reconciling. I did learn in therapy that it was natural for me in a safe enviornment to let go and experience things that I didn’t get to experience at the original age. There is no age play in our dynamic. For me middle space is hours lost playing Animal Crossing on my switch or hours lost in a coloring page or puzzle. It’s child free time and a safe space for me to have no real adult restrictions and the ability to indulge in things that I didn’t get to before. For me, my brat comes out when I am overstimulated in a bad way and resembles a temper tantrum almost or my brat comes out if I feel like I need more attention than normal but in a playful fiesty way.
I also enjoy wax play, impact sessions, sensory sessions, restraints, shibari, role play, dressing up, toys, long distance phone sex and sexting and many other things but these are just things I enjoy. They aren’t a necessary part of submission. Luckily for me they are things that are enjoyed by my Daddy and I and are included in our lifestyle.
There are those that can be in a dynamic that does not include sex and it’s not uncommon. There are dynamics that are only about the sexual aspects. Again, the best thing about this lifestyle is you can negotiate what you want and what is important to you!
Your submission is unique to you and no two submissives or dynamics are alike!
Submission for me is a way of life. I thrive in my rules and expectations. I take pride and joy in being Of Service to my Daddy. I am able to continue growing and learning in a stable dynamic with an amazing person. I have a safety and security built on a solid foundation that I never knew was possible. The freedom I found in submission filled a hole I didn’t know I had. Submission has helped boost my confidence and self worth and helped me see myself through my Daddy’s eyes (I still struggle but I keep trying everyday).
I have heard so many say that submission is a gift given to the Dominant but honestly I see submission as a gift I gave myself and I hope that others can see it the same way!
Until next time,
Pretty in Pink 🩷
Pretty in Pink 