There are times that even when BDSM/kink takes a backseat to life (because as much as Daddy and I would LOVE for it to be THE Priority there are just things that make that not possible right now) that I am thankful for having it in my life!
The next few blurbs might seem a little off topic but if you stick with me; I will tie it up nicely (at least how it all makes me thankful)… Mmm tied up… Now my mind is wandering again…
Today is one of those days where I have a million thoughts/ideas BUT for a rare change I have a lot of answers to my racing thoughts! So, I have this need to get it all out so there is proof that these days do happen!
There are things that kink has allowed me to explore, research, understand, work through, overcome and ACCEPT!
Kink has helped me understand Service and how it fulfills me and why. In understanding Service and the mindset that a service submissive has to have to be able to provide their Dominant true service AND find fulfillment in it. Being of service to my Daddy from the smallest menial task to anything sexual he may request leaves me feeling full of pride and joy; which leads to me feeling sexy and horny and then I feel confident to ask Daddy for more attention or be more assertive with him. An easier way to break it down is… I was able to be useful in a way that was needed by Daddy and it made my head happy and that allows my body to get horny!
I didn’t understand this cycle of service and praise before kink and felt ashamed that I was turned on by it. Now I understand it and I like it. In the understanding I learned that I can’t vacation alone or relax… EVER (because I feel like I’m not of use or busy) but I had the confidence to let Daddy know I felt unable to relax unless I had his permission. I KNOW that I don’t need it to relax because Daddy doesn’t care if I relax BUT the Service part of me, the service submissive part of me and the sub part of me (yes, all different pieces of the same cake but different is the key) don’t know how to relax and be of use and fulfilled if I am not doing anything to be of use (Thanks PTSD) so I asked Daddy to let me know it was OK for me to relax and do nothing, it was what he wanted me to do. Before I would have felt insane letting him see the spiral my brain thinks in but now I am finding the confidence to let him know when I need something even if it seems silly to ask for. Yay, kink confidence!
Kink has given me the excuse I needed to dig deeper into myself than I ever gave myself permission to! Thanks to kink I discovered so many things I was blind to and the strength to accept myself.
I learned impact sessions help me process emotions in a way more therapeutic than anything I have ever tried! I learned impact sessions make my pussy drip because I was able to process anything I was subconsciously holding on to while getting the physical pleasure that borders on pain… Mmm it’s so sweet!
I learned wax play helps my body stress melt away, gives the pleasure of warmth, bone deep with a quick bite of pain depending on the heat of the wax and etc. I also like the tenderness from Daddy that is part of our wax play. The prep with the lotion massage, touching, kissing, light impact and check in about the session, the release of pleasure wax play gives me, the little bit more of a sting in places Daddy scratched or smacked, the art Daddy makes of me and the pictures he likes to take, next is part one of clean up using hands and a plastic card to loosen, scrape and pull off the largest pieces and what comes off and then part two Daddy showers me in HOT water and makes sure every piece of wax is gone, scrubbing me and spraying me while touching me and dragging his hands all over me and pinching my nipples reminding me how sensitive I am. Then takes me to bed and snuggles me. Again, body and mind merged with pleasure and pain… It just does things for me!
I am thankful I have kink to release the build up of vanilla life! While Daddy and I live a more traditional lifestyle with him working and me being a homemaker life doesn’t leave as much time for the full 24/7 kink we wish for; We are able to make kink work for us for now and for that I’m thankful!
Kink helped me learn there is peace in giving up control and I found strength in being vulnerable enough to give up control and just be free in that moment.
The things that I am thankful for because of the freedom of kink surprise me everyday!
Until next time,
Pretty in Pink 🩷
Pretty in Pink 